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    From the daily archives: Saturday, November 6, 2010

    Wow, what a long strange trip it’s been!

    I started the Caringbridge site when I was just about halfway through my four months of chemotherapy.  I wish I had begun much sooner.  Blogging helped me through, but more importantly, I didn’t have to talk on the phone to wellwishers while I felt rotten, and I didn’t feel guilty about it because I knew they could check up on me.  On those days when I felt really abysmal, I would look through all the good words in my guestbook and feel better!  Since that first blog, I posted 408 entries totalling 136 pages.  Most of these were written before 2009.  I also had over 15,000 visitors.  Now that’s support!  You can find the link to Caringbridge to the right of the page.  It’s super easy, it’s free, and if you’re walking the tough path right now, it will help you in more ways than you know.

    So here’s a bit of history from the archives.  I’ll publish the good ones as I go through my old journals.  I’m getting ready to shut down that site, to make way for someone who really needs it.

    April 11, 2007

    Well folks, it’s full speed ahead!

    My white blood cell counts are so good that Tim (nurse) is going to ask Dr. Brown about cutting my neulasta shot dose, which will make this round easier for me. Huzzah, 4 of 4 down!

    Today is wierd Wednesday. I always feel strange on Day 1, kind of racy and disoriented, running hot and cold, just odd. But it’s not bad, just disorienting. By Friday I feel rotten, but this time maybe not so bad if the shot is not full strength.

    The infusion went fine. I was blue at first, annoyed that I have to deal with a cold on top of chemo, but then my ray of sunshine arrived (Flo, of course) bearing Jamba Juice, a sweet, buttery goodie and a big smile. That made things better! It got better still. I made a new friend, Avis, who came in for her infusion, took the chair next to mine and beamed at me the way I like to beam at people. She had a friend visit too, and the four of us passed the time in very good spirits. It even got a little bawdy…the topic of breast reconstruction set that off… where else do people have a good laugh about that stuff?

    Laughter gets me through… Thanks Avis and Company, thanks Terry (my impov teacher) who said, “It’s so hard when your body feels so bad, but your heart is so wide open!” So true, and she knows. She went through it four years ago. I feel this opening getting wider every day,opening into full flower like the intoxicating roses in my garden.  Thanks Steve, for making me laugh this morning, and putting the picture on my website. Thanks Cindy, for the yummy lentil soup I’ll be noshing on while I’m hunkered down these next few days. And thanks Terry, for the Trader Joe’s run today for the stuff I forgot!

    So now I settle in and take care of myself. My only job at this moment is to rest, heal, get well…thank you all for your prayers and good wishes. I truly could not do it without you!

    Love,

    Elizabeth

    Current time postscript:  neulasta was the stuff that you get to instruct your bones to make more white blood cells, so your counts don’t get low.  It made my bones hurt, a lot. I used guided imagery to tell my bones to produce white blood cells, so I ended up getting half the neulasta.  That fourth infusion was much easier.

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