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    From the daily archives: Saturday, January 8, 2011

    Like the conscience in old cartoons, My Own Death sits on my shoulder, reminding me to pay attention and treasure my life.

    I was noodling around this evening as I often do, looking for cool juicy stuff on the internet, and my meanderings brought me to an article written by a Palliative Care nurse. She writes about the common regrets she hears from the dying. I was deeply moved by the article, because what happened to me is that I got a second chance, so every regret that she listed was a change I had the opportunity to make in my life.

    Everyone who faces life threatening illness and survives gets a second chance if they choose. I am so grateful that my second chance came while I was still young enough to have more years to enjoy my children, and to follow the passions that I had forgotten on the back burner for so many years.

    The little annoyances and aches and pains that make me afraid are the reminders of my commitment to myself. None of us knows how long we have. Am I doing what I want to be doing, what matters most to me with each day that I have?

    Susan said in her blog, “please don’t pity me. I have work to do”. I am certain that the passion she has for this work of the heart that she does will keep her alive. I feel deeply that my passions keep me well, and feeding them is a smart survival program.

    Today I joined my daughter and my husband for the audition workshop for “The Wiz”, the musical that Bay Area ETC is doing this spring. Part of me thinks I don’t have time, and that I have other important things to do. This article was a timely reminder that doing what I love is the most important thing I can do, and the fact that I get to do it with my sweet family makes it all the more ridiculous not to do it. So, this week I’ll be warming up the pipes, practicing my cackle and hoping the director can see my diabolical side!

    go here to be reminded.

    Well, here she is again fighting the beast.  Damn.

    My friend who I have not met, Susan, has learned that she is facing cancer a fourth time.  She is gearing up for yet another hard fight.  And what was she doing before she found out about this?  Advocating, of course.

    She has worked out a partnership with Lymphediva’s and Crickett’s Answer, a nonprofit in memory of Crickett who died of breast cancer.  For details about this, go to Toddler Planet and read Susan’s last two posts.  I could write about it, but I’d rather sozzle on Susan’s Story.

    Once again our Heroine is facing another Dragon, sent by the Gods to test her strength and her courage.  Each one develops another skill that she will need in order to do the work that her Spirit Guardians have sent her here to do.  She is tested again so that she can give even more hope when she has conquered.  She does not know that they are watching her every moment, and they are pleased and proud.

    Her struggle is catalytic to others who are tempted to do less than they can.

    Her latest diagnosis is an opportunity for God to do a Great Work and prove again that prayer works, and love conquers.

    She is the Great and Powerful Priestess facing the obstacles to the Four Directions, one challenge in each quarter, and this is the last gate to Victory.

    I love making up stories.  Susan’s latest post asks for support, but not pity.  I am not even tempted!  When I was fighting, a friend shared with me that another old friend had made the comment, “well, if anybody can do it, Eddie can!”   Eddie meant me by the way.  It’s along story…

    If anybody has the wherewithal to face this again, she does, and I’m sure it really pisses her off that she is doing it again.  It pisses me off too.  It’s time for her to get a break!

    So, what’s the story?

    What if the meaning in this story is the magnitude of one woman’s impact, and the impact of love on one woman?  Let’s show her.

    Please, think a good thought for my friend, send her prayers, send her love.  She has done so much for so many.

    When I was diagnosed, I made a very specific request to God.  I said,

    “Dear God, if I have ever done anything worthy, if I have ever made a positive contribution to someone’s life, earned any good karma, done a good deed, if there is any positive kickback that I have earned in this universe, please, PLEASE send it NOW!  This is when I need it”.

    I don’t know if I deserved it all, but I got back more than I ever expected.

    I hope Susan’s good karma is rushing now at her in a fantastic wave of grace.

    For more about what she’s been up to, check it out:

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